I know, I've abandoned you. But still, you're precious, my not-so-readable-blog :')

Tonight, is the worst. Worst. Worst situation in my entire life. In every breath I've ever taken. In every part of life I've ever tasted. This is fuckin' painful. Fuck.

I mean like, have you ever had a crush on someone? In currently seven years? And you never ever even think about anyone other than him? And when you finally see him again, he's back with.... stranger? Have you?

Have you ever felt like... totally wrecked?

Sorry, I know you must be get that what-the-hell-are-you-talking-about sense but, I don't even know what I must doing now. And tomorrow. And next week. And next month. And next year. AND IN EVERY MY SCHOOL DAYS. AND EVEN IN MY LIFE. I wanna take a long deep breathe with the free sensation feeling. But I just can't.

I never thought that love would be this painful. Lol. I'm not blaming you, you deserve to have that beautiful cutie girl and a fun love story. Hahaha whatever. Hah~ Remember when I had a crush with him. Good times.




But he never returns. And he'll always be my favourite thing about life. Thank you for making me feel so alive.




I still remember your face, anyway.